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I feel so selfish and sad. This is my second pregnancy, my first I didn't even know until 6 weeks and never had to deal with any of this. This pregnancy was super weird to start with and I have just had this bad gut feeling since I got my first positive test. I found out this morning that my betas are not quite doubling, but close. I know I'm not out yet, but I can't help but feel sad and mourn this baby already. This makes me feel so selfish though because I haven't lost my baby as of now. I'm not looking for anything... I just need to get this off my chest 😢