Need to vent

Im 15 weeks pregnant (First time mom) and my hormones have me insane. One minute im happy , the next minute i want to cry all day. Everything that comes out of my mouth is very rude even though it is unintentional and i feel so bad for my boyfriend because his feelings get hurt then when I apologize he say “ its okay im use to it “ , like NO i dont want you to be use to it . The laziness this pregnancy has brought me is unreal , no i dont want to go anywhere and dont try to make me or i will be very rude.I really want to wash those dishes but i REALLY dont feel like it because im exhausted.I know that its my hormones but my feeling for whatever issue it is is so strong to where i dont even care. Its sharp pains up my butt probably because i haven’t pooped in 2 or 3 weeks . I crave a chipotle bowl but can only eat 2 bites before im full . Waste of money. Not to mention my nightmares 5 nights a week. Sometimes i regret being pregnant im so tired of this shit ! Im never home alone so i cant scream out my frustration and if i do someone may call the police . Im tired of being the bad guy. I dont want no friends over here no family just leave me alone in my bed !!!!!! End rant .