🥺 my heart aches

I feel like, I miss my best friend. My ex. We’ve been split for a little over than a year, we’ve been seeing different people now. But he’s not like him. Which is good, but there are some things that I miss.

We’re long distance, so it’s a big adjustment for me. Anyway, with my ex I felt like our humour was the same. Or sarcastic jokes, asshole-ish jokes. We could always just bug eachother & text random shit to one another when we weren’t together. Show/text eachother memes & videos because we like & laugh at the same shit. I felt that we could gossip about people because we knew of the same people. My current partner is 4 years older than me, he also has friends older than him. lol. My ex was always texting me, he’d never go hours without trying to talk to me. Even if it’s just random.

With my current partner, I feel alone. My phone is so dry, I stopped talking to people when we started dating 10 months ago. He doesn’t even text me. We could go all day without a text. I know it’s vice versa, which I do text him or snap him. He ignores what I say most of the time & just replies with something super random or not relating to what I’ve said. But he’s good for me.

My ex was an alcoholic & abused drugs. He seems better now. We have 2 sons, whom he doesn’t see. Mainly because he’s moved away & he feels he can’t see me. So, yeah. I really wish he was around for our sons. It hurts my heart. I feel like I have to be with him for him to be around. I want my sons to have their dad. My youngest probably has no idea who he is. He’s 1 in 2 weeks. 😕