parents having sex in the same room/bed as you trauma

i know this sounds pretty bad so to basically explain:

I’m 19 and still live with parents while i commute to my college.

I don’t have much memory of my childhood because of how bad my parents marriage was and always putting me in the middle of it as i’m the oldest of my sister and i.

I have a lot of trouble with intimacy with my boyfriend of 2.5 years because i was raped by my ex sophomore year of high school. So i know a lot of my sex troubles come from being raped. i was in therapy for a year and 4 months and just ended it to find a new therapist that can help me dig digger and tackle the problems i have sexually.

Growing up i always knew when my parents had sex. And i mean every. single. time. I am an extremely light sleeper and i have always made it a point to my parents. I remember one time when i was about 3 or 4 my parents had sex in the same bed as me and i remember crying because i was tired and didn’t know what was going on. On another occasion when i was about 7, I remember watching a movie in my parents room because they were the only ones with a tv and they came and had sex while i was in the bed with them and then kicked me out after they were done so they could “get ready to go out.” Everytime we went on vacation my parents slept in one bed and my sister and i slept in the other. Every night, on every vacation, my parents had sex and i would be awake the entire time and then i would get in trouble for falling asleep during the day even tho i would say “i couldn’t sleep because i kept hearing noise” as they proceed to do the same thing the next night. The last time my parents did anything sexual in the same room as me was when i was 16. And maybe a week ago or two my parents had sex again being loud but also had their door wide open until i slammed my door shut.

I don’t know if this is something anyone else has dealt with. As i’m looking for a therapist to help me with my deeper problems, i want to know if there is anyone out there who has gone through this and maybe if this caused intimacy troubles for you. Any advice if it did cause you intimacy problems. It’s just such an odd thing, I feel, that i feel as if i’m the only one who has gone through this.