Just need to vent

I don’t know why I feel like I need to write this, but I don’t have many close friends or family that I feel comfortable talking about these issues with and just need to talk to someone other than my husband (he is wonderful, but I need some new perspective). I struggled for 2 years to get pregnant with my daughter and had 4 miscarriages before finally getting pregnant via IUI. She is now the light of my life and I love her so much but I want more than anything to give her a sibling. We got pregnant after only 4 months of trying and I was elated, thinking my days of infertility and miscarriages were past us but went in at 9 weeks and found out it was an ectopic pregnancy. I had to have emergency surgery and remove my Fallopian tube and the baby. After that experience I decided to just go back to my fertility doctor but now it’s been two cycles and I keep only ovulating on the side that I don’t have a Fallopian tube and it is making me feel hopeless to have another baby. I have been sad for a week straight and just keep tearing up every time I get a quiet moment. Why is it so hard for some of us to get (and stay) pregnant??