I did what I thought was right

I wish I can post who I am in this account but most of my family are on here, but if they find out who this is, hi 👋 and move on, anyways, I am 30 years old, I grew up in a toxic, manipulating and favoritism and other things that I don’t know if there’s words for it, am the eldest of 5, you know how the song pressure from encanto resonates with a lot of the oldest sibling, it’s true and it sucks, it’s sucks more that my own mother not only will make me do stuff for my siblings while they don’t do anything but watch and blame me for stuff they did but my mom also talk behind my back to everyone including people that I do not know, I have no idea why after all this years treat me like $hit, now that I just turn 30 I decided to do what most people don’t do because “you only have 1 mother” is that I have cut ties to her, I do not talk to her or her sisters or cousins, I have blocked their number and decided to close all of my social media, I have friends that they don’t know what’s going on I decided to remove them from my social media too because I don’t want my family to reach out to them and start throwing their venom, my mom was my rock I wanted to be like her but as her child I thought she was supposed to protect me, love me and no matter what she will always be there but no one wrong thing that I did she will tell everyone how evil I was and when I needed her the most she would say figure it out it’s my fault, I trusted my mom sisters on making her become a better mom and that I needed her but they end up brain washed my her and start lecturing me on becoming a better person, I was confused, her being far away I needed to vent to her and she thinks am being selfish? Ama o confused everything that I try to do right for her is wrong but now having her blocked in my life I feel better but still feel sadness.