Needing some encouragement. Back at it again after losing 85 lbs in 9 months…

Feeling super overwhelmed, even though I know I’ve done it before and can do it again… it’s just such a defeating feeling.

A little backstory.

I had my first son in January 2019. When I got pregnant, I was already about 30 lbs overweight, and gained 40 through the pregnancy. Once I gave birth, I jumped right into changing my eating habits and walking A LOT. I lost 85 lbs in my first 9 months postpartum and was at an extremely healthy weight and felt great.

At 12 months postpartum (in 2020) I got pregnant again and gained 40 lbs again through the pregnancy. While I know that’s a little more than most, that’s just what I gain, it was a very healthy pregnancy and I felt great. After I had baby #2, I was excited to start my “dieting” and walking again to drop the 40lbs, but we were VERY surprised to find out that I was pregnant again after only 5 months (in 2021). To be honest, I didn’t lose any weight in those 5 months because I had severe postpartum depression and it was really hard to get back into a good routine…. So at that point I was pregnant for the 3rd time in 2 years after having not lost the baby weight from pregnancy #2, I feel like I put on double baby weight when looking at both pregnancies combines back to back.

I gained 40lbs through my 3rd pregnancy also, and I’m now 7 months postpartum… and while I have lost 40lbs, I still have an additional 40 from my second pregnancy to drop.

My 3rd baby put me at 3 kids under 3… it’s exhausting but I love it lol I’m a stay at home mom for almost a year now, but it’s hard for me to get out and walk with the babies because my second kiddo elopes (autism is suspected and we are in the process of her autism eval on top of her early intervention, speech and OT)… but anyways, having 3 very little kids and one who elopes, I don’t feel confident taking them all out for a walk when I’m by myself since my middle is so unpredictable and my fears run rampant… So we typically stick to the yard where I can keep them contained.

I’m 30 years old, 5”6’, 185 lbs with a goal of getting to 145 lbs.

Not really looking for any advice, but if you have some, I’ll take it. But more than anything I feel like I just need encouragement and a place to share my journey and process, because when I share with my girlfriends, I feel like I don’t get much cheerleading or excitement from them as I feel in myself when I make progress, and their lack of response makes me lose that confidence I have in myself… anyways, I’m rambling lol that’s my story… 😊