Hi everyone.

So , I’m currently around 8 weeks pregnant and am faced in a situation I never thought I’d be in again. When I was 19 I had an abortion and it was for all the right reasons, but part of me always regretted it and hate so much hate for myself.

I’m now 25, engaged, full time work and an in a completely different stage of life. The only thing that was missing was the house; the current economic situation had sadly postponed us as we didn’t think we’d get a mortgage yet. Which was fine as we were saving.

We found out I was pregnant and insatity I felt such happiness because I feel ready for this. The horrible situation is that my partner decided he wanted to retrain in a new career so left his full time job. 2 weeks after he left we found out I was pregnant and now he feels completely awful because he knows he now can’t go an retrain because we need the money, we need a house and mortgage.

He thinks we need to abort because if we keep it would mean he would have to get some quick fix jobs that would take all his time and would be more than likely minimum wage. I fully supported him leaving his job because he wanted to better himself for our future. But now he has no job and I’m 8 weeks along. I understand his reasons for wanting to get rid because having this baby wil mean he has to sacrifice his dreams and will result in us probably not giving this baby the life we always wanted for it . But how on Earth do bring myself to abort a baby I want with all my heart and soul.

I literally soend every single night in floods of tears, breaking down because I can’t think about abortion without crying.

Any advice right now would really be appreciated xx