SAHM Depression

I’m expecting our 7th. I was working before school let out, because I had a sitter for my 2 that were not in school. Sadly, she had a stroke and can no longer walk, drive or do anything she could before. Her life changed overnight.

I can’t afford daycare, and then I found I was expecting, so my husband says there is no point in me working right now when the baby is due in 3 months and I would be going on a leave anyway. So now I stay home with the 2 youngest, and it’s too routine, not to mention I can’t stand knowing I am not contributing to finances. I’ve always worked and so this is weird for me. My mom says to try to enjoy this and relax but I can’t. I have ADHD (unmedicated since pregnancy) so I already feel like I need to do something constantly and if I don’t then my mind will race. I haven’t been able to find anything from home besides “quiet environment” call jobs and well this is not a quiet environment lol. I’m just starting to get depressed. There is nothing to do besides chores and of course I love playing with the littles but I hate having to tell my husband we need $30 for laundry stuff, $100 for this bill, etc. I took care of everything when I worked. I’m just getting lonely and feeling unimportant.