God give me strength

God give me strength, it’s 4:25am here in California I can’t sleep and something told me to look into my husbands phone. He has a secure folder where I found hidden apps, in those apps he is texting his best friend nudes and mentions that he would fuck her again, and then I found the most heart breaking thing ever he has a picture of my sister with her boobs almost coming off the bra. I can’t handle it we have 2 kids together my oldest is literally gonna be 5 next month I work full time and make an earning where my biweekly check has been around 1,300. It’s gonna be hard but ima confront him in the morning about this and it’s gonna be over completely over because this is hurting me and I’m working my ass off to provide for our family. Next month we were gonna have 5 years married and I can’t help but feel hurt, he knows I don’t like that stuff and it’s worst that he lies about it. I need the strength to be strong for my little ones. I can’t help but cry and feel so damn stupid

Update: he said that it was a picture that my sister sent his best friend and that the pictures automatically save to his private file. I told him that it was still a issue because we have multiple times talked about me not liking him send nudes and he still did it and I can’t with it

Update 2: I confront all three including the best friend, apparently she sent him the nude and he shared it with my husband, he wanted my husband to sleep with both my sisters and record it for his pleasure and my husband as an idiot didn’t know how to say no, I told him that was no excuse to have the picture, my sister said that she wouldn’t sleep with him due to the fact that she doesn’t find him attractive and more as a brother for taking her in when she went homeless. I told them each a piece of my mine. I told my sister that we are family and family can hurt the most, i told her that this was the most painful thing she has done and if they didn’t sleep together wow cause it’s hard to believe her. I told his best friend he is more disgusting than a child predator, how can someone be called a “best friend” and encourage them to cheat or try to get them too do so. I told him he is not to be within 2 miles of my house or I was gonna put the cops on him, I told him that he was always my least favorite person and I didn’t like him as much as he didn’t like me, I told him that I just pray his son don’t come out like him cause he lives with his baby momma and they both cheat on each other there like in a open relationship with is nasty. To my husband I told him the whole truth I sacrificed so much for him that he couldn’t see a woman who was there for him more than his mother, he hurt me might not be from my sister as much but the fact that he was fixing me when he found me just to break me himself. I told him that I need to be away from him for a while and that his actions will have consequences that he will regret I told him I will be strong for my kids and I hope one day he dont go looking for something like me in another girl, because she will be just like him and use him. Until then he will learn real pain…. Afterwards at work he texted me a big paragraph it’s was a apology but also and I’m an idiot paragraph, I read it and didn’t reply because actions speak louder than words and so far his actions have not been good. I really do love him and I’m crying and all I want to do it hit him and say don’t be stupid I love you and I want you to be the man I need. But a part of me is also telling me to keep my pride and hold on to my feelings because I can be hurt, but how can one let go of someone who made me feel better about myself when my world came down, how can I let go of a person I am use to being around, how can I stop loving him when all I see is us in my head. Why does this have to be painful, I wish I could forgive him, because I am not a hateful person and I don’t hold grudges but even on my good side I have to do what right from wrong and it’s really bringing me in a deep depression.