Found out I was pregnant 10/11. Definitely wasn’t planned or expected because we’ve been trying for months…years!!!! & the fertility goddess has never looked my way🧚‍♀️✨ we had big plans for my 20 +++ birthday (ugh I’m old af) hotel on the beach room service explore and have fun😌 Fast-forward: baby isn’t even here yet & we have issues!!! He’s pissed off because I haven’t told my mom that I’m pregnant yet — I’m still wrapping my head around it & I’ve experienced losing a baby very early on and it sent me into a very deep depression that still lingers. So to be pregnant now I have no clue what to expect. I pray that everything goes beautifully and I actually get to hold her or him. I don’t care how he feel’s honestly because what I went through he’ll never understand or how I do things and why I do them. Apparently grieving over a baby that I never had is fucking stupid according to him … but a baby is a baby no matter what in my eyes and refuse to allow a simple minded insensitive ass man try to make me feel weird af about it.