Hi ❤️ Please, help me or connect with me but please bare with me too. I’ve been trying to conceive for 6 years and have had 5 miscarriages. I keep all of my feelings to myself. I don’t tell friends or family or even my husband. I’m just an extremely private person (because of anxiety), but it’s eating me alive. Every baby I’ve lost has truly wounded me. I’m in a very deep depression and have severe anxiety. ALL I want and have ever wanted is to be a mother but all of my babies have died very early in pregnancy. I can barely function. I think about my babies all the time. I plan for motherhood and I do so much research on conception, pregnancy, birth and motherhood because it feels like it’s all I have control of. I feel like an expert on all of it, but yet no living baby. I’ve joined many fb groups but I’m so scared to even post in them. I feel like no one will ever understand my pain and anguish, but I want so badly to connect with other women that feel my pain. I guess I’m making this post to find others like me. If you feel the agony that I do, please tell me and maybe we can connect on Facebook or Instagram. Please ❤️ Or if you have any advice I’d love to hear. I’m sending everyone reading this lots of love, light, positivity, and healthy baby dust! 💙💕