Heartbroken

My life is a joke. My heart is shattered and I feel so empty. We ttc for 2 years, did four rounds of clomid, and conceived twice losing both pregnancies. This year I finally fell pregnant after we stopped trying. This was the best year of my life. I got induced at 39 weeks and my baby boy passed after birth with no warning at all. It’s been exactly two weeks since I had him. I feel like everyone is moving on with life and I’m stuck. How do I attempt to move on? When do I start healing? He was my first baby and I just can’t wrap my mind around it. He has an entire nursery and I haven’t stepped foot inside it since I came home.

I have no where else to vent I’m so sorry I keep posting here. I don’t know anyone else who’s gone through this. Everyone I know has taken their babies home with them.