Feeling down 😔

I know there are so many people on here who have been trying for so long so I really don’t want this post to seem insensitive… I have only been trying again for 3.5 months since my mirena removal. I really thought and had a strange, overwhelming feeling that this month was my month! I’m 9DPO and AF due in 4 days but I did an early test today and there’s nothing to be seen. Usually I don’t let this get me down and haven’t on previous months, but this time it’s really got to me 😔