My mom told me to suck it up and swallow to go to her friends house for thanksgiving.

Alyssa

Let me start with that i have been battling with ptsd and a serious anxiety disorder. My mom invited me to come to her friends house for thanksgiving, where a family friend had a terrible stroke a few years ago and he still isn’t all the way better so they are just going to spend time with him. I already have the weirdest feelings when I am around ppl that are near death or are very sick idk where this came from but ive been like that since a child(please dont think im being mean, i think its like a feeling of being scared of death idk). But already that clouded my mind when she told me, but also that i felt like i would feel out of place and my anxiety might skyrocket. i told her my concerns and that I don’t know yet and all she could say was “well why dont u just swallow ur anxiety and enjoy yourself” and some more inconsiderate things. To me i think it was not only ignorant to say that.. but also rude considering how much ive tried to explain this stuff to my mom. i even took meds for a year but went off of it becuz i felt anxiety of the anxiety i would feel if i had to get off of it 🫠. Im so sick of adults, especially our own parents, completely disregard real life issues that consume us everyday that we have no control over. Am i right to feel this way? I would never say those words to anyone battling mental health but im just a more empathetic person when it comes to others feelings. anyone else go through this, and how do you cope when ppl never understand?