I had 3 miscarriages before having my rainbow baby. To have my ex husband of 13 years leave me 8 months after she was born. 6 years later I started dating again. 1 year later we conceived without trying, but a week after a positive test I had a miscarriage. It has been a while, but I don’t remember the others sucking this much and being so emotionally draining. I am going to be 38 in December and he’s 28. He isn’t pushing but would love to share a child with me, along with his bonus daughter. I am just feeling down but determined to try again in the future and honestly just seeking some positivity.