hi guise, I am the same gal who wrote the post screenshot below. before you call me a horrible person, pls read the screenshot by expanding the photo to read the entire thing.

my bf came back after being being rude to me and trying to harm himself -- he seems to be stable and at peace after his suicidal episodes for the past month and a half. he came back and apologized and I told him that we should still continue on our break for mental health reasons, that I forgive him and that he has to rebuild my trust again.

ever since, the relationship has been seeming very fake. it's like he doesn't actually love me but is trying to be "caring" to make up for the sins he has done.

when he talks with me, he sounds like he's a 'professional' as if were like business partners or something because he is afraid to lash out at me again. in text convo, he said he wanted to take care of me bc I was going through some leg pain from training in sports. so I said sure and asked him if he wanted to hang out for the first time since 5-6 weeks, and he says: I'm open to it, I don't know what we would do. I felt like this answer signaled that he didn't want to hang out, didn't actually mean what he said when he said he was going to take care of me, or was uninterested. he comes to my house to "take care of me" and didn't show much affection at all or even converse much. he was quiet which is very different from how things were before (he used to talk more often). in fact, he visited my house and I took care of him while I was in pain -- I cooked him food and I asked him to wash dishes so he "washed dishes" but later on that night at 11pm, I found that the dishes were half washed so I had to wash them again. he even told our friend that he was going to take care of me, so I made a comment and said, "haha it's funny, you told our friend that you were taking care of me but I am actually taking care of you." I ended up doing my own physical therapy on youtube while he was over at my house and asked him to join me so that he would be entertained and have fun. he ended up feeling bad that I was taking care of him and that he wasn't able to help my pain.

finally he loosens up after 3 hours and were laughing and having a good time. then he offers to massage where I am in pain. but he catches me off guard saying, "I am truly sorry for what i did and i want to take care of you. I want to rebuild your trust again and i'd say that tonight was an example that I did a good job." I didn't know what to say but I was like "wtf why is he trying to tell me what to think" in my head. it was super sketchy.

he leaves then later, he texts me: "I'll remember today as a start of something new, in building my trust to you again. Taking care of you is number 1 for me to you. Today I think I did a good job."

I am so confused and I feel like this relationship is fake -- like he doesn't actually love me but is trying to be "caring" to make up for the sins he has done and just have me around to have the 'boyfriend' title. the truth is I do not feel genuinely loved and feel like I am unhappy. is his behavior a red flag to you?