Hello everyone so quick to the point, we already have 3 beautiful girls; I had a miscarriage this year in February at 8 weeks. I wasn’t able to get pregnant until now which I am super excited but now doubting it.

You see his sister and I where pregnant at the same time, they took her daughter after she was born due to her using meth. I knew right away that we had to get her something in my heart told me. I go back to work this December so I have been off for 3 months.

Well he’s stressed out because it will be five now, I am now suppose to put my life on hold because we have our niece and she’s 3 months( we will hear back on Friday if we get adoption super excited) I love my baby girl she’s the most sweetest thing EVER!

I’m sitting here because today I found out I am six weeks pregnant, it is also the day we’re I made an appointment for an abortion this Sunday. I have an 8 year old, a soon to be 6 year old, a 3 year old, the baby which will turn 4 months, and now pregnant.

Me and the baby needed each other, I didn’t want her to get lost in the system in foster care god no there are to many horrific stories. Would it be wrong for me to want to keep this pregnancy? My husband thinks I’m selfish because I already have a baby or niece soon to be daughter even than the process for adoption take to years mom can come any second.

My children are my world and I’m finish school next year in the fall for cybersecurity, I know if I go through this the relationship between my husband and I will not be the same but I can’t force him to have this child either. I am conflicted let’s not forget what his other sister might say, I’m scared she might take the little one away or bring it up.