If you read my whole rant , thank you , please no judgement. So im sitting here , 36 weeks pregnant, just got a call about my induction which is now scheduled for 12/30 at 5am and now im just wondering what the hell was i thinking ? I cant take care of a child i can barely take care of myself ! Im 23 and all i do is sleep (even before pregnancy ive never been the type to go out), i have severe depression , anger management issues , NO patience whatsoever, a couple of friends , and i dont even like kids ! I have self esteem issues and here i am with a big ass belly with alot of stretch marks so i just know thats going to be bad . I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world and he has always wanted a child but now im questioning if i wanted that or if i wanted him to be happy ? I wasnt trying nor was i preventing but now im having a baby in 3 weeks and theres noone to give it too , i have to take care of it . I feel like that one person who really wanted to ride a specific ride at the amusement park so bad but when your finally next in line you see how really high up it is and dont want to do it anymore. Is this normal thinking ? Btw im typing this as im having really bad acid reflux thats legit burning a hole in my throat 😩. I dont blame my innocent baby not one bit but im just scared yall . What if i cant be the best mother to her ?