I have this problem...

So I'm strangely drawn to this guy.

I don't find him attractive, and I don't want anything from him, and I am not in love.

So then why do I need to keep fighting the urge to be near him?

I don't even want this.

But it happens.

I met him when I was 17 (I'm 29 now), I had this feeling instantly, I hadn't even spoken to him at all, this feeling led me to be his FWB for a while but it wasn't good. I mean sure the sex was good (out of this world tbh 🙃) but if nothing else is, it's not worth it...

He is an entrepreneur and moved to the village my dad lives in. My stepmom had reposted some of his topics and now he's on my mind non stop. I liked one of those topic and he's friend requested me again.. he has reached out a few times over the years and he apologized a few times for his behavior.. we had a few chats but nothing serious happened.. but the thing is that I feel so damn drawn to him I can barely stop myself.. I don't even know what this is.. I can't properly explain this but I am 100% of the time holding myself back from jumping in my car and driving up there (and do what??? I don't even know 😒😒). It doesn't make sense.

To clarify.. I can't follow this feeling because he seems to be in a happy committed relationship, and I am also in a relationship.. which is committed but not truly happy.. We're looking to fix things but this feeling doesn't make it easier.

To be clear, my partner has taken HUGE advantages of me, both financially as emotionally as also more recently sexually and I don't know if I want to continue a relationship with him but I am willing to work it out because I do love him and we have a child together. I just want to clarify that my relationship issues aren't caused by this thing.

@Carman/update

Do you think it's mutual?

Like for this guy.. when I approached him the very first time.. The day I met him.. it was like.. his focus was on me like mine was on him. But maybe his focus was on me Because mine was on him?

He never questioned me approaching him though.. it's like he knew. He walked me home that day.

I also think it might be, because he had contacted me several times between us parting ways and well.. now