Hi everyone. So let me start by saying this will be a very long post. I need genuine advice. No judgment please.

So I’ve been with someone on and off for years.

I recently moved out of state because I felt like I wasn’t making much progress towards my goals and dreams in California. I just wanted to try and build a life for myself and try and I included this person in my plans.

We weren’t together at the time but we obviously were still dealing with each other. OBVIOUSLY I AM SAD. I am sad over us not being together. So he just told me he doesn’t want to be with someone who constantly feels that way. LOL really? Well damn excuse me for being human. Who WOULDNT feel that fucking way unless you really just don’t give a shit about the other human being? Lol ok….

So he pops in and out of my life saying hello or whatever and at first he was open to coming out here and visiting the new state and now he’s opposed to it. My brother does live here in this state and they have met eachother once. And apparently he said I act different around my brother and would rather not deal with it. I also didn’t plan on having to live with my sibling until I found my own place. But he said i also left out details so that’s another reason he won’t be coming out here to where I am. OK??? And apparently he doesn’t like the distance and can’t see himself being with me because of that. Lol WHAT? Like which one is it? This man also says that I secretly talk to his mother and that seems to be a problem. I haven’t spoken to his parents in months. And even if I did, what’s the problem? He claims he loves and cares about me but where is the action?? He also said I’m sure that I have someone else or did have someone else which I haven’t been doing anything at all. If I really had a bunch of men on the side, would I be up this man’s ass? REALLY?

Overall, am I wrong for feeling the way I do? Like is this really a reason not to be with me? Is something wrong with me? Who is NOT gonna feel sad when you really want that one person and can’t be with them? What the hell. Of coarse I’m sad!

Am I wrong? And what should I even do at this point?