Coming to terms with birth disappointment

So for context i always wanted an unmedicated natural birth. Yes of course the most important thing is a healthy baby and healthy mom but in a perfect world that was my desire.

With my first son I had 5 days of prodromal labor and was induced on the 5yh day as it was already scheduled. Unfortunately it ended in a csection.

With my second son I had a wonderful medicated vbac.

With my 3rd baby girl my dr was game for a second vbac and we were working towards the goal of a unmedicated vbac with lots of movement. Birth tub etc. Well my body had other plans I ended up with a complete placenta previa. It was marginal at my anatomy scan and they felt confident it would move. It did move. Into a complete previa 😑 thankful for the csection that made it possible to safely have my daughter

She was our last baby. I am so thankful for 3 healthy children and 3 safe deliveries but sometimes I do still mourn the loss of the birth experience I never got to have. So now I am coming to terms that it's ok to not have that and that experience isnt what it's all about