Miscarriage

It’s my 33rd birthday and I just found out I miscarried. My HCG last week was 12.5 today and today it was 2.6…Idk how to feel I feel this loss grief I feel embarrassed for telling everyone, I feel like it’s something I did wrong and on the same side I feel relieved because I know I can get pregnant now and that when I do I won’t be on anything that isn’t good for the baby. I’ve been weening off of my cymbalta and quit smoking and drinking when I found out but was living my life as usual. I’m in shock and I feel embarrassed for telling people and I know why people keep it a secret now. Idk how to feel I’m just sharing my emotions because this has been a safe supportive place for me. Thank you ladies!