Another month, another unwanted period arrival.

My husband and I have been trying off and on for almost a year after 2 miscarriages. Especially during the holidays, it seems to become even harder when we are unable to conceive. Many friends and family around us are announcing their pregnancies and it makes it hurt even more. My husband keeps reminding me to be thankful for our beautiful 4 1/2 year old son, which I am immensely thankful for, but I want to be able to give him a sibling. I want to be excited, and not jealous of others close to us as they announce their newest additions, but I’m struggling so bad right now. I have prayed for so long and I am so discouraged at this point, it’s devastating. I feel comfortable enough to say my true feelings here in hopes for support and a community that understands my feelings without feeling like I’m a horrible person or being judged for my negative feelings towards others. This is so hard you guys