I am feeling so defeated. My husband and I have been trying for a long while now to get pregnant. Month after month it doesn’t get any easier. Finding out that my best friend is pregnant, and now my sister too brings nothing but sadness and a deep hurt that I can’t even explain. I feel so alone in this journey. I feel so jealous. I feel like it will never be my turn. I don’t know, I guess letting this out into the world will bring a little comfort. Maybe find someone out there that understands the pain. The hardest thing of it all is that somehow I blame myself for putting so much pressure on my own feelings. On my own heart. On myself. On being a mother.

I will continue to pray in hopes that I will, too, get the happiness I am longing for. If you find it in your heart, could you pray for me too? Thank you to those that took the time to read this.