8 months pp, pregnant again 😶‍🌫️

Hello my son is 9 months. I missed my period last month and started getting nauseous so I took a test. I AM FREAKING OUT GUYS. 😭 it still haven't registered in my head yet. I can't believe it. This is my 4th pregnancy and I have two living. 6 year old and 8 month old. My last pregnancy went well except for delivery. Which scares me this time. It literally traumatized me. I'm not able to have a baby vaginally anymore do to the complications me and baby experienced. I'm not excited or disappointed. Pretty indifferent because I'm having another baby with the man I love. I just wish we was more careful. I never thought I'd be a 2 under 2 person but here we are. Ready for this journey. ❤️❤️TO Anyone in the same situation. YOU GOT THIS MAMA 🙂