Feel like giving up

4 weeks post partum and I have alternated on and off between pumping for feeds and breast feeding with a shield because I have had constant damage to my nipples cracked and bleeding and always healing :( at 2 weeks I got mastitis then a week later I’m being treated for thrush along with my son and still sore nipples , still on antibiotics for that and now I have woken up with a very tender breast to touch and have had my son feed on breast and pump it but it’s still very sore , I feel it may be the start of mastitis again :( all of this journey just makes me want to give up and give formula but I really want to breastfeed for atleast 6 months like I did with my first son and I feel so guilty even thinking about giving up :( and to top all of this off currently getting over a cold like the rest of my family