Would you say this relationship is just…

I need some girl input 💛

I’ve been talking to a guy and I’m a little confused. I will ask but kinda need help here

One day we all went out with a group of friends to watch the super bowl. We got drunk and I remember the guy i was talking to told me he liked me. I told him I liked him too. The next morning I apologized and just laughed it off. He said it was not a joke and that it was true he likes me. I was shocked. He said he wanted to take it slow like just talk and see where this can lead to.

Personally for me “taking it slow” is kinda like telling me he isn’t interested. But mehhh I was okay with it. We were just kissing and I was performing oral. Things were great until I was reflecting on our relationship because he started calling me a lot. And if we went out to get food he’d hug me and hold my hand …friends with benefits don’t do that right?

So I told him that if he sees this as more friends with benefits he should let me know. He just said “omg “

He said “I think it’s important our bond grows”

Not sure what that means. But things got awkward and I kinda just putting enthusiasm

We didn’t talk for like 5 days and last night we met up cause I made him pasta …we sat down in his car and I can tell he was fighting the urge to kiss me. He kept looking at me and he got hard. He just leaned in and made out with me.

One thing led to another and I gave oral.

Should I just take this as a friends with benefits ??