I just need to vent

I’m so stressed out. I applied for my 4yo son for SSI. (He is autistic and has ADHD) and we finally got a decision on his case. He got denied. Which I got denied the first several times until I got a lawyer. It’s so hard to keep up with him and I also had another baby, but yeah, I have two kids and barely scraping by with $900 a month. $300 credit card that’s actually hurting my credit because I keep using it, several payments on a few other things, rent is $300. I have to have gas. Food. Personal items. Like… I wish I could work. I hate this. I guess I will have to get a lawyer and appeal his too. 😭 In the meantime I’m terrified because how prices of everything just keep rising.

**his autism effects a lot of his daily activities. He can’t use the bathroom alone, still has a lot of trouble putting on his own clothes, doesn’t understand stranger danger or boundaries AT ALL. Constantly re-enacts and quotes shows. However he is VERY smart for his age. He also has a speech delay, although he’s gotten better over the last year through the help of speech therapy but I only understand 75% of what he says. Strangers understand maybe 45-50%

He also can’t sit still for more than 4 seconds. He can’t drink from an open cup. Just recently got him to drink from water bottles. He’s INCREDIBLY PICKY on what he eats. Most foods, besides peanut butter and jelly, pizza, or chick’n nuggets, he will either pocket in his cheek or it will make him gag. He will pocket the food for an hour if I don’t make him spit it out