Bit of a rant

I’m 2 months postpartum and I had a caesarean but my god. It was my first ever section and the recovery was so hard and now I have a infected c section scar which makes me feel 100000x worse. I just wish I could feel better and my body felt better. I’m getting upset as I feel I can’t do nothing with my girls, I have a 4 year old and I spent one month not being able to do anything and now I’m struggling again with this infection…it’s so upsetting I couldn’t even bath my 2 month old as my back is ruined from being stabbed multiple times from the c section. I just feel so alone and feel like I’m moaning all the time to my partner, I feel as if I have nobody else who’s had or been through these