I’ve been with my husband almost 6 years but finally got married last April. He is 37 and I will be 45 on the 24th. I knew when I met him I was going to marry him and life was going to be different, how I had no clue. We got to a good place where we hardly ever argued, we talked and compromised if needed depending on the circumstances. We have a couple of legal issues going on. During all of these going on his mother moved in with us and he had already told me that if it came down to it that he would take care of her that he couldn’t put her in a home. So she moved in with “dementia “ why I say it like that is because she faked SOOOO much of it . She used it to manipulate my husband to her advantage. Short back story she emancipated him when he was 15 and was unaware that he was listening but told the judge that he was a mistake and never should have been born, which destroyed him. So he was on and out of trouble for years and lived on the streets for years, i just recently found out,!which made my opinion of her even less than it was already due the the treatment of him at and after he was emancipated. So back to current time , he became someone I didn’t even know anymore, calling me names, accuse me of cheating almost daily, yelling staying gone all the time even over night. Nothing was ever good enough or right I was always wrong. Time together was far and in between and never for very long maybe a couple hours. I took care of his mother as I didn’t work, she told me to shut the f up, one night threw her table with food and drink on it at me because I called her out on her shit! As previously stated she manipulated her son, would start fake crying (as there was NEVER tears) claiming she didn’t know where she was and how did she get here. The night she threw the table at me she kept trying to go outside claiming someone lived next door that actually lived in NY. The next day she faked a heart attack!!! Wanting me to call the ambulance but I knew she was lying because all in the same breath she claimed she was having chest pains and couldn’t breathe and then asked for a cigarette! Went in for observation but she was fine. It was all in an attempt to get my husband home. She started laughing if she heard him yelling at me or us fighting. This went on for two years until she passed away last week. Unfortunately he is incarcerated for a vop which I absolutely hate for him, backing up a minute, I apologize for so long. I knew why he wanted her to move in because all he has ever wanted was her acceptance and love. But this manipulative narcissist woman couldn’t do that. Going through her phone after she came here to live I found so many messages about him when he would get in trouble but if he was around and she had a problem he was the first person she called! I completely resented this woman for two years because of how she treated him. Point of post, He is awaiting his release date to come home and he is professing how much I mean to him and how much he loves me. And now that we have gotten married everything means everything to him. But me being married before and cheated on for a huge part of it never would cheat and my husband now is /was my world tried to explain what he is feeling and what it means to him has meant that to me for six years but the last two years have been an absolute nightmare and we have lost each other and I’m scared it’s for good. The worst part is that it’s that way for me but he’s wanting to move forward and crying because he’s let down his walls all the way finally and said he finally realized how much he loves me and I mean to him and how sorry he is because it took so long and how he’s scared that it’s to late now. He now realizes what having his mother here has put such a wedge between us that it is as big as the Grand Canyon. I’m so angry and hurt because now I’m hearing from several people of how he cheated on me when he was gone and I was home taking care of his selfish fake ass bitch mother! So yeah I’m pissed, I’m hurt, I’m so fucking angry that I don’t know what to do. How do we move forward? How do I forgive this? How do I fall back as deeply in love with him as I was before his mom moved in? I’m still in love with him but it’s not as strong as it was, and he has mentioned it more than once that he knows I’m not that I’ve changed. I don’t think I have changed that much I’m just more vocal now when and if he treats me how he has been with his mother around, because without her around he could be the man I fell in love with almost but as soon as she was around he went back to being an ass. Thank you for reading and any advice.