I just found I’m having a boy yesterday. This will more than likely be my one and only pregnancy and I really wanted a daughter. The grieve of losing all of those dreams and hopes is at times overwhelming for me. I never wanted to be a boy mom, I look at the future and just see hell. I see years filled with things I rather dislike and constant arguments with my husband and a mother son relationship that sucks. I’m trying to push through it, I get these feels are real, and raw, and 100% valid - but I’m just so…idk disappointed isnt even the right word… it’s worse than that…