Disgusted with myself and men..

*lengthy post* okay so I don't usually come on these forums or whatever and tell my business but I don't have anyone else to vent to and I honestly don't want to be judged because all of this is my fault I just want to get it off my chest because I feel so disgusting.

Little background story, I'm in college about to graduate and I'm 22. I'm not really sexual liberated but I do have a lot of partners in my past that I'm not proud of. So I took some time off from guys to try to focus on myself. But I have this friend I'm just going to call her Kayla just for this story. So Kayla and I are cool and one day I was over her place and her next door neighbor saw me and asked her can she put us together because I guess he liked what he saw, meanwhile I don't even remember seeing him. But anyways fast forward Kayla tells me how nice and sweet of a guy he is and how he's a perfect fit for me she talks to him all the time coming out the building blah blah so one day he sees me again but this time he comes to talk to me himself. I'm going to call him drake. So anyways me and drake talked for a long time and he seemed so sweet we ended up liking the conversation and met up at his place the next day to talk and watch movies. I wish I never went.

So at first it was nice, I was comfortable but the longer I stayed the more he was real touchy feely but I didn't plan to have sex and I just met him so I didn't know how to feel about it but I continued to ignore it and watch the movie. But the more I ignored it the more he was real persistent. I end up telling him I don't want to do anything rn I want to just chill for today. Since we're just getting to know eachother. But he started telling me that we already like eachother we should know each other deeper, and that he already looks at me as a girlfriend y know just lying to make me feel good enough to have sex. I told him that I wanna save sex for later because people act different after and i just wanna be friends.. Fast forward this happened for a bit until I finally just said okay whatever. I'll spare y'all the details but after that we never talked again. Now I'm stuck feeling stupid and slow. I knew this was going to happen and I still gave my body up. I should've been more persistent with my no. I shouldn't have stayed that long. Im just so stupid and naive. I know that Iam stronger than that. I don't know how I let this happened. I feel so used I've never felt more disgusted with myself. It was consensual of course but I should've just left. This wouldn't have happened and I wouldn't feel so ashamed.

I don't want to tell Kayla at all so I haven't. I have not spoken to her and I don't even wanna go to her place anymore afraid I'll run into him. has anyone felt like this? I don't want to get depressed behind this but I don't feel like talking to anyone now and I can't stop being mad at myself. How do I get over this? Also if you don't have genuine advice, or just being rude don't even comment. I've acknowledged that I'm stupid and easy. I don't want to hear it again.