I have a cousin that we are about the same age. We have been dedicated to our careers and struggled to find love until our late 20’s. I got married, she decided not to but lives w her boyfriend happy. We both started to TTC a few years ago but we were not successful. I had share since we were children that if I ever had a daughter I will name her Emma. Even our grandma who passed away 2 yrs ago knew if I ever had a daughter that would be her name. My cousin got pregnant last year and didn’t share her pregnancy until she was 5 months. Which I understood since we’ve been trying for so long she wanted to wait past the 3 months. When I found out I felt sad, anger, jealousy, happiness but did kept my distance from her since I would cry every time.

A month ago she post a baby shower photo and the name of her daughter which you can probably guess… EMMA. The baby was born 2 days ago and she posted the picture today. Am I a bad person to feel anger and sadness. To feel like a failure and that someone stole my dream. I’ve been TTC for 5 yrs and patiently waiting for a miracle but even if I get it, even if I get a daughter … just don’t understand why she stole that from me 😔