Why can’t these tests just be positive? Why is this so difficult? I know I shouldn’t be feeling this way because I already have two beautiful children and I’ve been very blessed with them. I know God has a plan for everything and sometimes the timing just isn’t right. I know that one day I’ll have my positive, I can feel it in my heart. But why can’t this test be positive?? Why isn’t my time now??

Ttc is so difficult and sometimes people just don’t understand. They don’t understand the heartbreak of not having that positive test over and over and over again. They don’t understand the anxiety behind taking a test because if it comes back negative that depressed feeling comes back again. I’m so defeated.