Gender disappointment???

Is gender disappointment a real thing?

I am pregnant with baby #4, last baby. I have ALL girls. I want this to be a boy so bad! (pregnancy is wayyyy different then it was compared to all my girls)

I did the sneakpeek blood test and won’t know til Friday, I am just nervous It’ll be a girl and I don’t want another girl.

My brother (one and only) passed away in November and this baby is being named after him… that’s why I want it to be a boy SO bad. 😞 my dreams are a boy, my family thinks it’s a boy, I think it’s a boy… I’m going to cry if it’s a girl. 😫 won’t make me love it any less, but I’ll be disappointed. I had a miscarriage in March too and I just idk… my emotions are horrible right now.