Grief

I’m not sure if this is normal or not. My entire pregnancy has been pretty disconnected. I’m probably getting induced on Tuesday and have yet to feel a connection with this baby. She’s my second and I absolutely love my first and don’t know whether it’s because I’m grieving the fact I missed out on 9 months of my firsts life basically because of how hard this pregnancy has been or grieving the fact we’re no longer going to be just us? I’m not sure, we have a name for this one but I’m looking forward to not being pregnant anymore and am struggling with the idea of having another. This was a surprise pregnancy so that could be contributing but has anyone felt this way? Im just so scared I’m going to give birth and then, NOTHING. Feel free to leave your experiences if any. Just kinda scared