I can no longer go back to my church

Maybe this is a blessing in disguise because people on here kept telling me I need to find a new church but I still feel bad because I've been going here since I was a child. How this all started is my 24 year old son made a podcast talking about his trauma. He has schizophrenia and bipolar. He talks about his mental health. He is also a SW and has an only fans. He also talks about being bisexual. I found out him and his ex girlfriend had an abortion when they were teens which broke my heart. People at my church found out about his podcast and were judging me hard. He also started talking about religious trauma and in his podcast called out our pastor and called him a creep because of the purity ball stuff that happened when he was 14. Me and my son have talked and he's an adult. He's gonna do what he wants. I apologized for my part I had to play in his trauma because our pastor had told us not to get him on any medicine because the problem isn't mental health. He just had the devil in him. I should not have let a pastor have that much control over my child's mental health. That was on me. Him going unmedicated with those severe disorders for so long caused so many problems.

Well I can't go back to my church now. I went to Bible study Wednesday and my pastor was angry and pulled me aside to talk about my son's podcast again and I said "Listen. My son is 24. I can't control what he does. He's an adult. Please stop trying to hold me responsible for what my adult child does!" And he told me that my son is turning his daughter against him because his daughter is going on his podcast to talk badly about her family. And he said it was out of nowhere. He told me he thinks it's best I don't come here anymore. I called my son to ask wtf was going on and he said his daughter reached out to him. It was because of him talking about the purity ball. It was a gender neutral purity ball where boys promised their moms their virginity and girls promised their dad. He called the pastor a creep because he wrote a letter and made his daughter read it saying how her body and virginity belongs to her dad until she married and had to go around telling all the boys her body and virginity is her father's. She reached out to him because she wants to tell it from her perspective and how it made her feel. He's letting her do it because it's her story. I got off the phone with him and maybe if I had just apologized and begged to stay he would have let me but I was angry. I'm sick of being judged. I'm sick of them bullying me because of what my adult child does. I just said to him "Why are you punishing me because you did something that made your daughter uncomfortable? I've learned how to say sorry to my son. You can't just say you're sorry." He was not happy with that and asked that I leave so I did. Maybe it's for the best. It just hurts because I do have many good memories there. I need to emotionally decompress. I'm sure I'll find another church, but after months of being bullied and judged I think maybe I need therapy. I might apologize for what I said to my pastor but it's probably best I don't go back.