Pregnancy weight gain 🙄

This is my second pregnancy and it seems like my body just hates me when I’m pregnant I try to stay healthy and eat how I normally would without being pregnant and I only weighed 115 but once I get pregnant my body just packs on the weight I’ve gained 50 pounds again this time. Anyone else struggle with this? My son was a big baby 9 pounds and baby girl is measuring 3.8 pounds at 30 weeks so she’s a little bigger than my son was at this point. I just feel fat and ugly lol why can’t I be one of those beautiful small pregnant women 😂😭