Hey everyone

I’ve been secretly struggling for the past couple months. I got baptized this year and felt like I was excited for my new life. I got more involved in church but things have been getting out of hand. The lord put a business opportunity in my mind and while making it was fun and inspiring not that I’ve finished I’m terrified.

I still make mistakes I’m still falling for sin and if I’m honest sometimes feel like it would be easier to go back into the world we’re no one expects anything from me. My fear has stopped me from reading the word it’s like I’ve been frozen in place. And I’ve been sinning more than normal things I’ve been delivered from. This feels worse than lukewarm this feels like hell because I don’t want to disappoint God. But I don’t feel qualified to do all that he’s called me to do. I feel like I fell into a routine and not passion for his word and comparison to others gifts in the church

I need help that’s not gonna put me in a religious routine I need passion and fire that won’t burn out