What’s happening to me?

I’m 22 and I have been dating this boy for a year plus.The relationship is toxic,he beats me up😢😩He doesn’t even know how to satisfy me sexually I was thinking I’m incapable of squirting or feeling satisfied ..I don’t even know why I didn’t leave the relationship and I found out he’s cheating on me 😔I cried a lot,I didn’t let him know I found out I kept it to my self

Then this is where another guy comes in,let’s call him Barry…I met him last year and we clicked we vibed and I was feeling him,he wants me too bad but I’m in a relationship so I couldn’t sleep with him..

We made out and he found out I was dating someone he kinda felt hurt I didn’t tell him and we drift apart.we stay in the same building different annex…

So this year at the time I found out my so called bf is cheating on me,me and Barry bounced back and started talking settled our differences and I let him sleep with me

For a year plus that was my best sex ever,I squirted,I came twice,my legs were shaking

So we decided to be friends with benefits and we clicked off like that

We have had sex like 3times now and I didn’t want it to look like I’m using him for the sex so two nights ago I invited him over for a snack time so we were talking and he started asking me:-what name will I give what we are doing?I told him I like him and I love what we are doing tho I want it to be more…he said I know it can’t be more that he doesn’t think he will like to continue this stuff with me😓😥😰that we are friends but he’s feeling bad cos my bf is his friend recently

I told him I don’t want to end it with him,I cried cos it hurts so much..Being with him made me realized how toxic my bf is,it made me realized how badly have been abused in this so called relationship 🥲I begged him so much and he told me he will come over yesterday night for us to talk well

Now he’s ignoring my texts,doesn’t pick my calls or return them

So it means he ended things with me

What should I do?

Don’t judge me just give your honest opinion

I like this guy and I want him

Tho I don’t know if I love him

But I don’t want to stop having sex with him

Have nva felt so whole and cherished for a long time

I will be waiting for your opinion

Thanks