Lying about porn 🧐

So I’m typically not a person who gets mad over porn but this kinda bothers me. Actually bothers me a lot.

Well 1:30 am this morning I woke up and needed to pee. So I got up to pee. Well my partner was in the bathroom and when he opened the door his dick was still a bit hard. I can tell it was very noticeable. So I pee and go back to the bed. Then I’m like WTF. I asked him if he was back to playing with himself a few days ago, he said no. So I took his word for it. Now what I walked into, was not him waiting for me. I asked him to show me what made him nut so hard because when he nuts hard he stays harder a bit longer. He refused to tell me. He said he didn’t watch porn then proceeded to tell me he was getting off to my old stuff. Umm I said prove it show me on your app history, he said he deleted it. Then he sends me a screenshot of like 20 video and images of me. Ladies, he’s lying. Those videos are super old and just yeah I know better. I’m not an idiot. I told him I didn’t care before right well I don’t. It bothers me though when I ask a question and can’t get an updateded answer on the situation.

Right now I have BV and didn’t want to have sex. I get bv very easily and have had reoccurring issues having BV. I’m very concerned my partner isn’t being faithful to me about his sex life. Like I’ve been in other relationships but this one is working on 3 years and I keep getting it. Very embarrassing. I always told him everything you hide or lie about eventually comes to light. He didn’t believe me.

I know some might think I’m overreacting but it’s hard for me to trust a person if they ain’t honest. Trusting and communicating are very important to me. Which I don’t think is a lot to ask for. It’s like the bare minimum for any relationship really.

Why not ask for his porn history? If there’s nothing to hide it shouldn’t have been an issue for the guy lmao. And why is it a secret I can’t know what kind of porn and what turns the guy on? Like really…if you’re with someone you shouldn’t be embarrassed to express yourself. Be yourself, you get more by being honest anyways.