Irregular Cycles

I am honestly so drained. Feeling hopeless and so annoyed with my body to why it’s not normal (and probably never will be)😩 I’m currently 52 days late for my period. I’ve always had messed up and irregular cycles but when I’m trying to conceive it’s even more stressful and disheartening. Constantly questioning my body everyday and wondering why I haven’t had my BFP yet😭 Me and my partner have been trying for over a year and I understand it takes longer for others. I’m currently on the waiting list to be seen by the hospital for further checks but unsure of how long the process will be. I just want some good news🤞🏼 praying for some answers soon!