I love my mother but i hate hate that she took my step.father back after i told her about him sa me as a child, they only lasted 2 week back together then split, that was nearly 17 years ago but feels like yesterday i keep forgiving her and letting her back into my life even though i know shes a narcissist but i keep hoping for the mother who i remember singing me asleep. Learning me how to say my prays. Play hid and seek in the house or have a picnic in the living room because it was raining outside, but she changed or i grew up eaither way how can i love her but hate her so much its so annoying i keep trying to cut her out of my life the longest ive managed is 1year. Shes done loads more horrble things to me but i would need a few days to wite it all lol