Feel so down and anxious about it

Because my husband can’t/wont get a proper full time job or stay in a job I’m having to put my 3year old into full time nursery (currently he only does mornings) so I can work full time. This means child will be there from 8am to 4pm and eat lunch there.

I don’t think he is ready for these hours (he likes a nap around lunch still-but won’t sleep anywhere other than my bed🤦🏽‍♀️).

I’m so upset about it all. My original plan was for child to attend these hours after he turned 4 nearly 5 in preparation for school. I never wanted a nursery or family to raise my child as I feel it’s my job and my husband agreed. But he has left me with no choice (I’ve always worked a couple hours in the week - for a break, but now I’ll be full time).

Can’t even trust husband to pick up the slack and care for child in afternoons instead of nursery as he has no patience and he’ll make excuses for not being able to or will say he can’t get a job no more as he has to look after child(which will send me crazy as I’m meant to be doing that role)

Just a vent from a depressed resentful mum