Venting

I’m currently pregnant with my fourth and man has it been a ride. I know my body can go back but I don’t feel nearly as confident or as attractive as I did in my pre fourth baby body. This child was so unexpected and I miss running, I miss not being in constant pain. Now I’m afraid when I have this child I am going to have postpartum depression like I did with my first. Granted things are different now but just so many thing weighing on my mind and overwhelming me. Only 64 days if not more or less till this little guys arrival. Don’t get me wrong, I’m excited but also wishing I could pause time to breathe.