They haven't arrived just yet, 11 days to go. It could really be anytime now. I am so ready for them to be here, but also so incredibly sad.

This is the last time I will feel life inside me, all the movements and squirming and kicking and hiccups. Despite tiredness, cramps, constant peeing and shortness of breath, I have loved being pregnant with each of my children.

Giving birth is painful I remember, but I more so remember the amazing relieving feel once you've pushed them out, you hear that first cry, you feel them on your chest for the first time. They are soft and warm and still very much a part of you. The first time they find the breast and begin to feed. Its visceral, it surpasses any pain, it makes everything worth it.

I want my precious baby here, but I don't want to close this chapter of my life. They grow up so fast..

Please tell me I'm not alone