So, Jan 11th 15 days.before her due date my beautiful baby girl made her arrival. I started contracting about 1:30am jan 10th and continued to labor at home. By noon it was getting pretty bad and frequent so I called my OB to see if I could be checked in the office. At 1:30pm I was a 3cm and 80% effaced. I went home to wait until my husband came home still unsure if it was labor, even though it was my second birth. I walked to pick my daughter up from Kindergarten and got home, ate dinner then headed to the hospital. Once I was checked at the hospital they saw I was a 4cm and 100% effaced. They still debated on sending me home, which surprised me. After walking and swaying more I was 5cm dilated and finally admitted. I then labored in my room until 9:30pm when anesthesiology came in for my epidural. The epidural took 4 local anesthetics and 4 tries before they went to look up old mris. The 5th try they got it in at 11:30pm, and my water broke instantly. It worked until 1:30am when the contractions became unbearable again. They gave me an extra bolus of medicine although I was maxed out and it didnt help. She was facing the wrong way, face up, causing pain. I suffered through until 4:53am when we decided it was time to push. 15 minutes of pushing and out popped my beautiful baby girl Marilyn. 6lbs 1.8 oz and 19.5 in long born at 5:08 am. Epidural turned off and I hung out with my new baby for a while. They wanted to discharge me jan. 12th at 9am but then had bad blood pressure readings and extreme headaches. Magnesium drip started and pain meds as well as iron tablets and I just couldnt get out of pain. Finally I notified them of my pre existing back and neck problems and medications and they decided to try a muscle relaxer. Finally some pain relief, we think although I had a quick delivery that pushing made me strain my neck. Marilyn then had 2 temperature drops and being only 37+6 and me being GBS + they decided to take her to the NICU for an incubator. Shes made some progress already but theyve discharged me and it is weighing on my mental health. Luckily the outpatient family room became available so I havent had to leave the delivery ward yet. Having a NICU baby is hard, were not sure when shell be able to regulate her own temperature. Even though I strictly said no pacis theve been giving them to her and nipple confusion is killing me. I want to breastfeed but shes now all of a sudden becoming frustrated and not latching. Im uaing a nipple shield in the mean time. My husband slept apart from us tonight, the first time since she was born. Thankfully hes with my 5 year old trying to give her some sense of normal. I miss them so much. Im not sure how much longer I can stay here, being away from them is super depressing but I would feel even worse if SIDS or anything happened to Marilyn while Im at home. Trying to feed every 2-3 hours but with all the meds shes getting Im getting engorged. I pimped 15 min each side as a backup in case I run to see my daughter. Currently struggling. Wish me and Marilyn luck.