I am currently 30 weeks pregnant with my 3rd.

My husband has been acting really weird lately. I couldn’t pin point what, almost like he’s talking to someone. Idk. Needless to say, last night I decided to spy on him while he was in the living room. I caught him looking at lesbian porn that HE looked up himself. Girls eating each other out, sucking each other off, you name it…all while he’s touching himself. The betrayal that I feel is unimaginable. I can’t unsee it. I can’t forgive him. I can’t continue to go through this. 13 years is what he blew. 13 years. He ruined a family of 13 years! Now I want a divorce. This is not the first time either. Before anyone attacks me, no I don’t think porn is okay. No, we need discussed that was okay. Porn is adultery and porn is cheating. Please don’t come at me with “a lot of people watch porn.” Not me. Not us. Idk what to do anymore. I feel incredibly bad for my kids, for the newborn, but I can’t continue to live like this. My husband has a problem. He’s a lazy ass so I have to pick up the slack on everything imaginable, so yeah, at the end of the day I’m tired. I guess it makes sense now since he’s asked me to do certain things in the bedroom and previously asked me to be with a woman touching her so he can watch. I’m just disgusted. I’m so down right now. I don’t want him in the delivery room, I don’t want to be around him. He’s disgusting.

I also want to add that I caught him and recorded everything. Before showing him proof, he denied and lied straight to my face saying I’m delusional and I’m hearing things that I want to hear. Proceeded to call me crazy and stupid and that I’m mental. It was at that point that I lost it and sent him the video of me catching him. He said nothing. He went to bed like it was nothing. No apology, no nothing.