Super emotional right now in a TWW

Only on 9dpo after a chemical pregnancy earlier this month. So please be gentle. I couldn’t wait and took a test this morning and it was negative. I’m so sad about it and really thought I caught my Ovulation in time as I got a smiley and BD twice and the then once the day after. I have really no symptoms, but I was like that during my first successful pregnancy two years ago (in June). I’m so emotional right now and just not even sure. I know it’s early but I always see others with 8-11dpo with positives. Just maybe wishful thinking. I guess I just need support. I am seeking counseling and support groups as this wasn’t my first loss, but this one by far has been so much more difficult. 😞